I can't color within the lines either so I add a blur effect, it's my vaseline-smeared-on-the-camera-lense effect which hides imperfections. People have called my edits glowy cause of it! Haha suckersss fooled ya.
Nothing to be sorry about, don't worry. I don't think you're being nosy either. If I was bothered I wouldn't have disclosed any info so don't feel bad. I'm working on making happier memories with him and re-building trust. Nothing too groundbreaking to report but that's where we're at. I've made it clear to him he needs to get sht sorted so I'm waiting. I already finished school and got my career situated...I'd like for him to be on the same page as me in that regard hence why he's hauling ass.
Damn, poor thing. The trauma and guilt...it would make anyone feel under pressure. I'm glad to know you were able to walk her through her issues. That kind of sht is hard to disclose, let alone actually find closure.
If you are ever interested in editing there's an online site that's free to access!
^literally the same layout as PS. I've even edited a few things using that site if I can't be bothered to turn on my laptop. I mainly edit on a 10-year-old laptop that sounds like it's about to take off and fly away. So when people make an excuse saying they can't edit I'm like btch r u even trying = n =)
We're not dating atm. Tbh, if I end up opening the can of worms that is our history I'd have to book you for a session and venmo you your hourly rate lmao
You're stronger than I could ever be - the reason why I can do what I do is because I don't take it home. My job doesn't require follow up and, rarely if ever, do I see the same face...unless is a homeless frequent flyer stopping by for a delicious turkey sandwich. It's like the moment I clock out from work that's it. No extra responsibilities then I drive home in a sleep deprived haze. There's maybe 2 or 3 patients I wonder from time to time but I'll never know how they've turn out, I can only hope for the best.
Oh for sure, I'm similar in that regard where I have separate stuff for RP but you don't give me stranger danger vibes so if you ever wanted to find me outside of ani, you have my discord! No pressure at all.
Hearing all those stories makes me wish I was around to witness it first hand. My experience is somewhat similar as yours with creeps but I delete those people then wash my eyes out with bleach. I know my edits kinda insinuate fun sexy times but I write4realz guys I swear. I got lucky with my circle, the 3 main people have somehow stuck around and I think it's because we all have a baseline understanding that life happens and breaks are expected.
Fk that dude for calling you a whore. Some people are complete brats. Entitled brats.
People sometimes ask me to edit for them which is annoying since 1 - they never put any effort to try and talk to me except for edits and 2 - they refuse to try and learn to edit themselves when I give them resources. Like be self sustaining ya moron. I had one particular annoying dude beg for edits but he acted like if he was loud and obnoxious enough he'd get one. Like no idgaf that you're from some "well known ani family", sht means nothing to me so go away.
I got a good laugh from that "WE R THE UNWANTED YOUTH" comment. Oh man -rubs eyes- I don't know how you've been around him for so long, at his peak of edgelordiness too. He def has horrible taste in music and constantly makes me suffer with those shtty tunes but he's a dork. The past year has been far from kind to him and he's been doing well despite it.
Lmao I wouldn't even credit p**sy power. I'm like the least flirtatious person ever. I guess it all started when I was sitting around eating hot Cheetos and asked him to watch a movie one night cause he was still awake too.
I remember him adding me and I eventually asked how he even found me. We have like zero mutual friends and our friend groups don't overlap even the slightest. He said he saw me make a random comment on some stream. I was like uh huh sure dude lmao
One of my coworkers is the biggest black cloud - every patient he touches is either critical or becomes critical. When he's charge nurse everyone working on the unit gets absolutely fked with patients on the brink of destruction. I'm like, for the love of god stay home lmao
You're making my heart hurt Kani aksjdhaksjdhas. I'm sure your old friends are doing well, losing contact with people you've made such fun memories with is tough and I don't blame you for feeling the way you do. I hope you stay in contact with grumpy Issy. If you have discord, feel free to add me too! - Ringabel#9030
There was this friend I had on ani a few years ago named Etro. I think about him randomly from time to time because we were great friends on all areas - the constant back and forth replies with our story (which happens to be in my top 3 favs ever) and typing OOC away on skype etc. One day I woke up to a message from him saying he's checked himself into rehab for drug addiction and that he's sorry. Said he'll maybe come back but not sure. It's been over 3-4 years and seeing the drug addicts that come dead through the ER has me believing he's probably dead just like them. If he ever somehow does show up again I'm going to tear him a new asshole for leaving me but that's wishful thinking.
I took a peek at your thread with Issy, you're writing is so pleasant to read! Where have you been all my life? I wish we ran into each other when things were really bumpin'. I'm a lazy fart now.
Ummmm Kani jesus, I gotta share another story. The only name that was familiar in that lineup was one - Morris. The blonde character right? Super annoyingly righteous and heroic character in all aspects? If we're talking about the same dude then oh boy do I have a story for you.
He was one of the first people I met on ani, I think he like adds everyone. Anyway, we end up becoming friends, like legit friends. We started running into bumps cause he hated how Eve never seemed to like his character. Her views clashed with his character on every level. IRL-wise, he was upset we wouldn't talk more often. I told him many times just because we don't talk on the reg doesn't mean I think less of him as a friend etc. His constant need for attention really put a strain on our friendship. I even participated in group stuff he had and thought we'd be okay.
During that time I was living in a god forsaken city, stressing out about school and constantly worrying about a stupid truckload of things. My grandma happened to pass when I was states away , I was a big baby too.
I eventually couldn't deal with his neediness anymore and told him I'm done. I deleted him from everything...or so I thought. I forgot I had him on discord and he wrote the most hateful message I've ever seen. He wished ill upon me and my career aspects saying he hoped I failed and that I didn't deserve anything etc. This was a huge fking no since I was in school at the time and he was well aware of how hard I was working. I've always prioritized school and my career so for someone who considered themselves my friend to say the things he did was beyond unforgivable. I was also close to one of his friends and showed her what he sent to me. Even she was shocked and said he's never been that way before.
He tried to ask for forgiveness multiple times. I signed on ani on new years of this year and got a message from him through Saya's account (that mutual friend) insinuating something horrible happened to her. I outright deleted Saya then and there too. If he thinks I'm going to pry and reach out to him to find out what happened to her he's mistaken.
....yikes. big word vomit. He was a decent writer. He was a horrible friend.
Anyway, Issy told me how he use to be. He wanted to destroy the world. I poke fun at him and figured his inspiration came from sht like Naruto lmao I think I saw a bit of the old Issy when we first met but he's changed within the past year, in a good way too.
It's always so surprising how some people dodge death. The most critical and scary patients are the ones who look normal. They don't complain about pain or anything but their labs and radiology tests say otherwise. I'm forever paranoid, trust issues forever cause of those guys. I had a sweet old lady who looked completely fine but I hovered over her like a hawk cause her heart was threatening to kill her overnight. Slow and irregular heart rate with weird arrhythmias... I really thought she was going to die on me. End of shift couldn't have come fast enough.
She was fine when I clocked out at 7:30 but I heard she deteriorated during the day. Still alive though.
Totally get what you're saying. You're busy and you've got sht to do. Happy for the memories but it's hard when your main homies are gone. My current group is still active so I hang around for them. I'm not really active myself besides the odd edit and post here and there. I think I'd retire when certain people toss in the towel so I'm sure my days here are numbered.
I would've loved to spectate edgy people unleashing their inner fedora tipping monsters at one another. I missedddd outtttt.
I know you'll put up a good fight against Issy! I'm in call with him right now and he's burping away in my ear.