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My self.
Current mood:
 inspired
I roleplay in many forums i've been rping for 7 years now but my first 4 years were incredibly bad, growing in my country i didn't know much about grammar until i decided to take it seriously on my 4th year of highschool and 1st year of college. I found out about many things such as idioms the proper use of grammar just so i could increase and impress people of my quality. I've read many posts, in FTG where a place that i spent rping on the year 2011-2013. One of them bragged about being in a "elite" university for rich people! YAY CHEERS TO YOU! But what caught my attention was the fact that she stated "I wrote a lot of books, the course i took for college is LITERATURE" W-what? those words were stuck on my head for quite sometime, i feel like i want to study literature but what held me back is my fear... the fear of showing my sh*tty grammar hence why i had the though of studying the language "English" it self for 4 years... Sadly i couldn't. i didn't have the money to go any other courses. I have two dream courses English & Literature. After a few more years of sad life depressions i always kept my head up high as i think of awesome plots and a paradox about it. "Can someone really come up with something original?" the day i thought of that i googled how should a story go and i saw a graph for plots. Well sh*t. Roleplaying some people laugh at me for loving it. Why do i love it? I love it for a reason. I'm not really an accomplished writer but i like to imagine what kind of plots i can set up in the various of verses out there. As a kid i've always wanted to become like sailormoon (silly) and hate evil people but as i grow to become a teenager then an adult watching various anime and what not i developed a love and care for the antagonists. Not all evil characters start of being evil, there's a reason why joined the darkside.. may it be to protects someone (starwars) maybe it because of what people did to them and etc. that's why i'm willing to play as the villain every now and then.
I've never really seen a novella writer/rper's work(or post) before but after seeing that person's blog here my eyes exploded and i vomited rainbows. That triggered a certain memory that i could never forget the memory of what the literature rich kid from FTG once said when i asked her "What is quality?" she answered "It's to change people's lives" i've always hated her because she looked down on me and well i guess i can see why (because my quality is sh*t) i think i realized what she said. She must have had read a book that drew her into the world of the book. I never really felt that... i tried reading books i was never really a fan of it. BUT MY GOD. when i saw a certain role player's blog here about her sample the way she wrote it was a master piece....
IT WASN'T EVEN A CHAPTER IN A BOOK YET !... it drew me in..for the first time in my life i experienced something that I've been longing to feel!( I was probably too judgmental over books and lazy on reading them which caused me to not feel this sensation but who knows?) After reading that "sample" of hers i couldn't help but feel insecure about my writing style. I felt like i wanted to learn more but where do i start? i find my self lost, so i tried making something. A blog here about how i would pace Elphelt's story in Aniroleplay. Not much of you really noticed it but i tried, i tried to capture the same feeling i got from her "sample" but i just couldn't.
11:52 pm 8 + gmt i started writing this blog at 11:26
I was supposed to make my post but insecurity got me so i went here to voice whatever the hell i have on my chest (not breast = P ) and well hey it worked i guess i can write my post for that certain forum.
Oh and hello there person i admire if you're reading this kudos to you.
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